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By Esa SnapS at 2010-01-29 18:59
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Sometimes i just dont know anymore. I love you but i know its not the same and it hurts to even think about it that way,your the best thing thats ever happend to me and i wont regret you ever.Weve been arguing for the littlest shit most of it is just childish and i wish it would stop ill admit that sometimes it can be me but its not only me its you too and this conversation keeps coming up and im scared to loose you but its something that i expect and if that was to ever happen im not sure wtf i would do...I know ill be hurt for a very long time. Ive done and gone everywhere with you. If we split everything will remind me of you and im not gonna know how to get out of that deep whole that youll leave me in. We both fucked up and bad.... Since the day that we met weve been 2gether everyday i guess i just got usto you and the idea of being with you 24/7(literary) when your not with me i bug out... Sometimes i think your getting bored of me and thats why we argue so much. But then i think about that maybe me going back to skool and all the drama in skool changed me. Because according to you im different when i dnt feel different. The only time i dnt feel like me is when we argue and the arguing is becoming an everyday thing and i dnt know how to stop it. B4 the arguments wer bcuz of your parents and now its just for random shit.How do we stop?Is this just a test?Are we gonna make it?Are we meant to be?Or is it that your moms wishes are coming true? i guess she prayed for it that bad. i admit i made a mistake and i regret it truly i do. But that isnt gonna change what your mom and dad(family) think of me. I tried to get along with them but its no use i gave up on that a year of trying is to much.You happy about my mistake but im not and you dnt understand you see it your way and not mine. Now just the other day you asked me to marry you after so many years but how is that gonna happen when only one side of the family(mine) is okay with it. i just dnt know what to do anymore. Yesterday i told you with tears in my eyes that i was here because I L0ve you and that i put up with your parents bcuz i love you because trust me if it would have been another girl she would have been done a long time ago, bcuz if it was another guy i still wouldnt have been there. I dnt need that shit but only cuz its you im still here bcuz i love you but its getting hard just like sometimes i think your giving up on me sometimes i feel that one of these days im gonna give up on you for sure.idk what to do anymore.....
For the ppl that have any opinions i would be glad to hear them..
Should i stay and put up with it or should i be strong and let go?
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